Wake Me Up

Again . Yet , another again .

What's wrong with you , Yan Yan ?

Act if the fact is not obvious and clear enough to you , that he's changed !

Damn it , he's changed ! Just accept it already ...

Time and time again you have to find out things that hurt your feelings , crush your esteem , destroy your faith .

Don't you jus feel you're not loving yourself enough ?

Enough already !

Stop thinking it !

Stop feeling miserable for thing that's you can't change already .

Stay awake , open your eyes wide to see , this is what it is , and this is who he is .

Wake Up & Forget ! Fast !

Obvious !!!

Stress

Been sometime i didn't drop a pen in my bloggy . Too many else happened at the same times recently.

I jus don know how am I to express my feeling here . Do you ever wonder what you want in life ? What do you want to gain when you're working ? Salary ? Sense of belonging ? Achievement ? I jus get extremely pissed lately with some HUMAN BEING !!!

Beside that , jus wanna share with all of you , yesterday after a stressful morning , my collegue and I went to a shop for lunch , she knoe I'm unhappy , then she keep make me happy ... Finally I'm fine , thanks for HIMIKO.

Anyway , really wish to have a long long vacation . Well , my Japan trip has been dumped into the trash since long ago . In addition , now doesn't seem to be a suitable moment to go there too .

Actually i jus wanna get rid of this city temporarily where the place is without stress, without ppl that I know , with cool breeze from outside and of course with extremely stunning sunset view.

I got A feeling

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有时候，我真的比较喜欢保持这样朋友的关系

I Do really prefer alone * I'm sorry to you

不是我不要，只是我对爱情已经失去信心了

对我而言，所谓的爱情的到手之后，什么都不是了

所谓的甜言蜜语，所谓的承诺，得到了之后

最后都会变成一堆废话

我相信
你会找到比我更加好的

Ending Story 故事结束了

曾经，我在做着一些别人看起来都觉得很傻的事
之前，总是期盼着一些事情的到来
也期待着会有奇迹的出现

现在终于发觉，这一种傻傻的等待和守候，是会迷失了我原本的自己
也许人生就是这样
来来去去，聚聚散散

如果可以再做一次选择
我宁愿不认识你
不愿意让自己爱上你
更不愿意给你带来那么多不必要的麻烦和伤心
让你不知所措

在现在的这一刻
我已经感受不到我在你心目中的位置了
也许我在你的心目中根本什么都不是
我也不敢再想了
不知道现在这样的一个你
我到底得到的是什么
难道就是一份说不出的痛吗

现在
或许我还活在我们的记忆里面
终有一天
你会忘记我们之前曾经一起微笑的日子
你会微笑的继续你的生活
我或许会微笑的在你的记忆里
还记得
和你一起看过一场戏（海角七号）
我只是那时候对你说了一次我很喜欢哪一首歌（国境之南）
你却很记得
还特地叫朋友找
过了一段时间
你把那首歌拨给我听
那时候还奇怪为什么你会有那首歌
一直问你
你都不说
过后我知道真相了
我真的真得很开心
那一种的开心真的是无法说出口
因为你把我的一句话放在心上
也可以说是你给我最好的礼物
也令我难以忘记的一份礼物
我自己也真的不明白为什么可以这么开心
只不过一首歌罢了
可能是看谁找的吧

今天终于明白了
没有了期待
就不会迷失方向
我会把我们的过去，放在装回忆的玻璃瓶
可以看，但是不能再去触摸
就好像你送我的玻璃瓶一样

我不知道我还需要多长的时间才能真正把你忘记
这些日子
都过这一些以泪洗脸的日子
忍受着时间的煎熬
每次都对自己说，要坚强一点
但是换来的，只有更加痛的悲伤

我已经真的很累了
当我每踏出一步
都是那么的难
我恨我自己
只是顾自己的感受
却一次又一次的打扰你的生活

从今天开始
我会开始不停不停的警告自己
停止对你一切的思念
以前的痛
曾经的伤
我会一点点的控制着

我失去过
我也争取过
但是到最后还是一样
或许老天爷真的要我放下吧
你放心
我再也不会打扰你的生活了

FeeL =(

Life is always complicated

Truth're always hidden but lie is always been told

Nowdays , Relationship problem

It's make me dissapointed + hurt

what can i do ? what i wanna to do ?

Leave ? Let it be ?

I think , nothing else i can say ~

SPEECHLESS

Mayb u feel i don care about you

what ever i say from now , already means nothing

Jus keep it

No one will understand and get it , what i'm thinking now ...

Choose to be silents and mystery

I GIV UP

Me and You

How it happened ?

I'm so blur about it

Everything you do sometimes make me confused

But everytimes you find me , i'm so happy

One day by one days

I will love you more

Seriously i wan to knoe what is in ur heart ? Is Her ?

What're you thinking ?

I'm quite sad that night when you use the way to treat me .. Lot's of thing wanted to told you , but dunno where should i start off my topic ...

At last i dunno what i wanna to say

Jus feel hurt ... Becuase of YOU ...

I GIVE UP

Belated Post

09.11.2009 Monday is my Babe xiaoleng 21th birthday ~

We celebrate with her on Sunday night at K box ~

When i reach , my Lougong jia jia was reach d ... Sorry about that , i'm late ...

All those ppl , i aso duno ~ Jus keep taking pic with my babe girls , and waiting myba0bei coming ~

 Let's picture talking with urs ~

BRITHDAY GIRL

LENG & YEW

JIA & MING ER

THEY TWO AGAIN

LOUGONG & ME

MY HUBBY

BOTH OF US AGAIN

WAO ~ YEW DAMN ENJOY

MY DEAR'RE NOT PLAY PLAY

WATCH OUT ~~ MY GIRL'RE NOT PLAY PLAY~

THEY ARE DRINK QUEEN AND KING ~

JIA * LENG * MING ER * KINKI

YAN * GIRL * LENG * YVONNE

Sorry , my babe leng ... Ur present i will giv you belated ... Cos i duno what u wan and what i wanna buy to you ... hahaha ... xD

At here wish you

HANG HANG FUK FUK

HAPPY EVERYDAY

SWEET WITH UR DAR FOREVER

At the night , i going back home earlier ...

Cos monday gonna wake up early ~

Away

Nothing else i can do now

I jus can let you go and now try to don't let tears dropping

" Why do i keep running from the truth ? "

All i ever think about is you

You make me hypnotized , so mesmerized

Cause i try and try to walk away

But i know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay ~

PENANG Trip soon ~

This friday , i will follow my gang and babe girls going to PENANG and will stay at there 3 days 2 nights .. hahax ...

Monday at night last minute only i make the decision , luckily we're still catch up ...

Actually wan to been there long time d ... But always because some problem can't going ..

I've waited the vacation for so long...  

BEACH BBQ ~

My gang last night talking about wanna BBQ at beach !!

Seriously,I hv been an ages didn't bbq at beach ... Nice wat ... ^^

I LIKES IT MUCH

I'm longing for this PENANG TRIP

**At here wanna say sorry to one .. next time if i didn't call you back ..
No need to wait me d .. mayb i'm hurt you much ..
really sorry !!

Gonna Leave y0u ~

两年了。。。
时间真的不留人，过得很快很快。。。
没有想到，你也陪伴了我两年。。。
在这两年里面，我在你那里学了很多很多东西。。。
真得很谢谢你，在你这里学了那么多的东西。。
教会了我，什么是纪律，出来这个社会要怎样做事。。
也明白了现在外面是个怎样的社会。。

在这两年里面，我的开心和不开心。。
你也知道，也只有你才知道。。。
也因为你，我才会变乖，变得会想和听话。。。
也只有你，才有这样的力量，把我乖乖的征服。。。

虽然有时候会因为，很不开心，很生气。。
但是，有时候，我也会很以你为傲。。。
和你的所有一切，我是绝对不会忘记的！！！
其实真得很想留在你的身边。。。
但是，真的有一些私人理由，我不得不走。。。
不过你放心，将来有一天，如果有机会，我一定会回来报答你的。。。

真的很不舍得，在做决定的时候。。。
心里面很难作决定，犹豫不决。。。
心里面很痛，很酸。。。觉得自己很衰。。。
也很对不起你，在你最需要我的时候，我竟然在这个时候离开了。。

在这里，而你给我的。。。
全部都是很美好的回忆。。。
我是不会忘记的。。。因为你是第一个。。。
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很舍不得你们。。。
今天是最后一天在这里了。。
离开你们之后，相信见面的机会会很少了。。。
要谢谢你们在这里教我的每一样东西。。。
尤其是我的上司。。。
真的要很谢谢他，他真得在我身上放了很多心机。。
也很对不起她，我这样就离开了。。
是她把一个，爱玩，做事没有规律，不听话，很坏的女孩子，教好的。。
我还记得我之前很任性的，每天给他添麻烦。。可是他还是每天处处保护我。。
很感谢你。。。 ANGEL

我很舍不得这里的同事。。。
在这里做了很久，很有感情。。。
今天是最后一天。。。和他们拍了很多照片留念。。。

Weekend ~

Time's pass so fast ... It's november right now ....Time passes so fast of this year , feel that there're many stuffs that i havent done yet ... Time does not wait for us , so we must treasure every moments ... Ok now , let the pictures tell urs the stories .. Picture are worth a thousand words , so I guess I will let the pictures do the talking . Not that much picture here ~

31*10/2009 ( Saturday )

Today is JunNg and Momo's Big days ~ And also is Halloween ... They both are same day birthday , so the birthday party also is the same place ~ At MoMo new house ... At first i don't hv plan wanna to go , but many of my fren got go ... So i go to visit my old fren ...

GirLs

Me * JunNg * Jing * Kinky * Joey * Akiyo

Me * Jun Ng

Me * Jing

Kakar0tt * mE

Me * Joey

Me * KinKy

At here wan to wish Jun Ng & Desmond Moo ...

Happy Birthday To You

All The Best Will Around To You